so last night i took a shower after cleaning my room because i was going to share a room with another person( theres 2 beds...) haha. and at the same time everyone else is in the sitting room having a very seirous family meeting( so i wasnt there, and i i wasnt supposed to anyway) so i took the shower and i come out in a towel shut the door to the sitting room and go to my room in the hall. and at the same time i was wondering "what if theres someone in there... " and i open the door and jared is in there! and as i opened the door he started to sing "do you know the muffin man?" and it happened right as i walked halfway into the room. it was very funny. but slightly awkward. haha. i actually jumpen alittle in a towel. i think he was quite suprised to see that i was in a towel too... its like " ohh wait... ohh... uhh... right... im going to go now..." anyway. yay for awkward situations. there always fun.
its the 40th post! yay for celebrating mediocracy! haha. i guess the 50th post is more of a thing to "celebrate about" or maybe just to make note of. yeah. really just the 50th, 75th and the 100th. yeah... haha for me i guess its an accomplishment of actually keeping a blog haha.
i think you can recall my note "leaving tomorrow" (maybe the second post i had?) well
today is that same day. except for the fact that i dont have the same feelings about it as i did when i posted the one coming here. i actually had a good explanation about how i felt this trip went in my last note. so check that out.
well people. Im coming home!
see you there!
the Sheep that is coming home because of his Shepherd,
Scottry!!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
tomorrow. last day.
Tomorrow is my last day and yet alot is still going on. haha. which im ok about too.
but what is weird is that i dont even feel like im at the end of my trip. like it doesnt really feel like a trip but like i live here. its weird. i guess ive moved so much that i guess i feel like ive moved here... haha. but i also think that im at the age of leaving home anyway. which i will next fall for college. (this spring i will be at a comm college near home. ) but anyway. im excited to come home. but my days feel normal here. i guess thats a good thing. but i guess i just have delayed reactions. (i think i mentioned that last blog? ) haha.
i changed the band name. its now "the shepherds sheep." haha the name of my blog, which, i am going to keep doing. and i think im ging to add a few members to this blog if they would like to start posting on here( obviously, Christina and Alex. and maybe somone else who im not sure is joining the band. if your a girl you know who you are... i think. haha ) i like dogs. and i try to eat air somtimes
on to more seirous things. I have been so blessed by being here. and ive become someone different than when i came. at least i feel a little bit different... i guess its more that i recognize alot more things now that are from God and actions that i do that need to go... ive read alot of scripture while on this trip and i think thats become a habit. which is good. and its not that i didnt before, but just not seirously and everyday. you know theres a way to approach reading Gods word and if we just read it to read it theres nothing we can get from it. we have to take to heart what it says and we have to take it slow and read a section at a time and contemplate on it( and ask God to reveal to you the mysteries of his word)
anyway. its weird leaving here. because a part of me feels like im leaving people behond and another part recognizes that i came to plant a seed. and to let God water it. but im deff keeping in touch with these people through email and will be monthly giving them new material and hopefully next summer i can go back for about two weeks to follow up on things a bit and to see where things have gone to.
overall, i have come for soo many different reasons than my own. for many ive answered their prayers in different ways. and for me ive learned that God does not only send us places because of the task we have in mind but for so many other things in addition that we never would have thought.
its been amazing getting to know the other side of these people. alot of times us muzungus( forigners or more simply, white people) just see them as translators and people that move our equipment for us and cook for us and put everything togeather for us. it really puts things into prespective, both sides, good and bad. ive done alot of counceling. and i thank God for giving me the wisdom, the heart, and the words to properly and correctly minister to those who seeked it. i recognize that none of the wisdom and other things like that has come from me too. im am but an empy vessel and will remain that until God fills it with something. ive learned to press on and keep working even though i was tired. there were days where felt i just didnt want to teach and everytime i felt that way i thought about why i was there and why God sent me. "does this correspond with why God sent me?" and i prayed to God to take the Hate out of my heart and replace it with Love. because when you just feel bad for no reason its a result of the absence of God. and when you are doing Gods work satan can really get in and mess things up when you even When you are just slightly distracted or if you just havent dedicated the day to God. Every day its important(more so when we are doing the work of God) to dedicate our day and lives to Him because when we dont, we set our selfs up for attack by satan. now, satan attacks regardless of the situation small step by small step untill your in a really bad mood. and it starts in ways we dont notice. we constantly have to evaluate what is in our hearts and ask our selves if its with Gods path.
and if im sounding "overly" christian to you... get real. "well you know, i love God... hes cool... but man relax... "
thats astonishingly wrong. but its not that astonishing because so many christians arnt real. they just go to church because "its the right thing to do."
what i do understand though is that we are all on different walks in our faith with Christ. Some just dont know. and others just choose not to know. and others dont care. and few are real. but i guess thats how humans work. people are filled with their own self intrest and naturelly what comes out is: apathy.
what an amazingly horrendous word. i hate that word. and i hate the Action with all my heart. ( dont confuse hating the action with hating the person because thats not what we are called to do.)
anyway. thats whats goin down. here in town. i aint got no frown.
Im excited to come home and im excited to see the friuts of what i have planted.
All in all, ive learned so much and i thank you all for your prayers and i thank you all the supported me in both prayer and material because without both i would not be here. thank you so much becuse it is my passion to share with people music and a different way to look at it instead of it just being there in the backround.
i have to go do a bit of packing. i hope you all have a wonderful night and i will leave in the 12th. this thursday and get home on the 13th. yay for that!
i cant wait to see you all!
The sheep who learns with all his heart from his Shepherd,
Scottry~
but what is weird is that i dont even feel like im at the end of my trip. like it doesnt really feel like a trip but like i live here. its weird. i guess ive moved so much that i guess i feel like ive moved here... haha. but i also think that im at the age of leaving home anyway. which i will next fall for college. (this spring i will be at a comm college near home. ) but anyway. im excited to come home. but my days feel normal here. i guess thats a good thing. but i guess i just have delayed reactions. (i think i mentioned that last blog? ) haha.
i changed the band name. its now "the shepherds sheep." haha the name of my blog, which, i am going to keep doing. and i think im ging to add a few members to this blog if they would like to start posting on here( obviously, Christina and Alex. and maybe somone else who im not sure is joining the band. if your a girl you know who you are... i think. haha ) i like dogs. and i try to eat air somtimes
on to more seirous things. I have been so blessed by being here. and ive become someone different than when i came. at least i feel a little bit different... i guess its more that i recognize alot more things now that are from God and actions that i do that need to go... ive read alot of scripture while on this trip and i think thats become a habit. which is good. and its not that i didnt before, but just not seirously and everyday. you know theres a way to approach reading Gods word and if we just read it to read it theres nothing we can get from it. we have to take to heart what it says and we have to take it slow and read a section at a time and contemplate on it( and ask God to reveal to you the mysteries of his word)
anyway. its weird leaving here. because a part of me feels like im leaving people behond and another part recognizes that i came to plant a seed. and to let God water it. but im deff keeping in touch with these people through email and will be monthly giving them new material and hopefully next summer i can go back for about two weeks to follow up on things a bit and to see where things have gone to.
overall, i have come for soo many different reasons than my own. for many ive answered their prayers in different ways. and for me ive learned that God does not only send us places because of the task we have in mind but for so many other things in addition that we never would have thought.
its been amazing getting to know the other side of these people. alot of times us muzungus( forigners or more simply, white people) just see them as translators and people that move our equipment for us and cook for us and put everything togeather for us. it really puts things into prespective, both sides, good and bad. ive done alot of counceling. and i thank God for giving me the wisdom, the heart, and the words to properly and correctly minister to those who seeked it. i recognize that none of the wisdom and other things like that has come from me too. im am but an empy vessel and will remain that until God fills it with something. ive learned to press on and keep working even though i was tired. there were days where felt i just didnt want to teach and everytime i felt that way i thought about why i was there and why God sent me. "does this correspond with why God sent me?" and i prayed to God to take the Hate out of my heart and replace it with Love. because when you just feel bad for no reason its a result of the absence of God. and when you are doing Gods work satan can really get in and mess things up when you even When you are just slightly distracted or if you just havent dedicated the day to God. Every day its important(more so when we are doing the work of God) to dedicate our day and lives to Him because when we dont, we set our selfs up for attack by satan. now, satan attacks regardless of the situation small step by small step untill your in a really bad mood. and it starts in ways we dont notice. we constantly have to evaluate what is in our hearts and ask our selves if its with Gods path.
and if im sounding "overly" christian to you... get real. "well you know, i love God... hes cool... but man relax... "
thats astonishingly wrong. but its not that astonishing because so many christians arnt real. they just go to church because "its the right thing to do."
what i do understand though is that we are all on different walks in our faith with Christ. Some just dont know. and others just choose not to know. and others dont care. and few are real. but i guess thats how humans work. people are filled with their own self intrest and naturelly what comes out is: apathy.
what an amazingly horrendous word. i hate that word. and i hate the Action with all my heart. ( dont confuse hating the action with hating the person because thats not what we are called to do.)
anyway. thats whats goin down. here in town. i aint got no frown.
Im excited to come home and im excited to see the friuts of what i have planted.
All in all, ive learned so much and i thank you all for your prayers and i thank you all the supported me in both prayer and material because without both i would not be here. thank you so much becuse it is my passion to share with people music and a different way to look at it instead of it just being there in the backround.
i have to go do a bit of packing. i hope you all have a wonderful night and i will leave in the 12th. this thursday and get home on the 13th. yay for that!
i cant wait to see you all!
The sheep who learns with all his heart from his Shepherd,
Scottry~
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