I haven't been posting at all lately and im not sure why i haven't...
I guess ill start off by posting the lyrics to one of the new songs.
The stagnate path.
I have walked in the dark
The stagnate state in which I lived
Drive me into the ground
so that I may rise again.
I need direction
So tell me what i need to know
My life is worthless without you
So lead me in the right way.
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So many things have been happening and its just going to get more and more busy.
I feel like ive kind of been drained. of course ive been sick too. so that probably has something to do with it.
but really, i dont understand how i feel right now. im quite confused about a few things. but i know that God is constant and unchanging and im so glad that he is. my heart is torn inside to be honest.
i think im going to write about it. so here we go.
My heart is an old wooden piano, sounding its melodious song, never heard.
My love is lost in the wind, like a Small boat at sea, blown by the forces of emotion.
I yearn to empty my heart, but it falls onto the ground.
You can see me. but dont hear me when I come close.
if only youd listen to my heart.
if only youd listen to my slow Song!
for it plays for you, yet you dont hear.
my music flows from my heart to my fingers and to my voice!
but in your ears, it just sounds nice.
and i cry out to my Maker in pain, and he hears me
and reminds me that He loves me and that His love is more than all. for he IS love.
But He made me to have this desire. Not to be taken over by lust or infatuation.
but Genuineness. Truth. Love.
But Drive me into the gound, Oh God
so that i may rise again and see what you want.
I need direction,
So tell me what i need to know.
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thats some really personal stuff. if you ask me to tell you more, I will. because i have nothing to hide. but im not going to plaster it on here. I started to write for one person, but it applies to alot of people. all i want is to show people my heart but when i do its not seen.
so aside from the intense pulling in my heart. ive been a little sick. and im about to get my license.
im also thinking about how i have one of most wonderful violist best friends around. to whom all of this usually gets spilled out to on the phone at night. round of applause for her for being a solid friend who hears this music quite often!!
well. i think its quite late. heres a few extremely random pictures.
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The Sheep Who is yearning for his shepherds arms,
Scottry~
