Not knowing anyone has never bothered me before, I mean, my whole life is full of moving, but theres this small unidentified desire that just puts me on edge... theres something about being alone, and i dont just mean relationships, in a new place that just changes my mood from content to earnest and seeking.
whatever it is, its making my stomach turn and twist. I feel so ripped and scattered inside.
Such constant warfare.
along with my workplace, a perpetual land of stumbling blocks.
I dont know what im looking for or why im looking in the first place.
-i have what i need already-
and yet i continue.
