yeah. this was made yesterday... but thats ok.

Good morning everyone!
Right now I am eating toast( kind of toast haha but its good) and tea. Earl gray actually. Its very good. (I think this is one of the few times I actually let it steep for the right amount of time… haha)
So today I start my regular classes at the Bible School. This last week ive been here ive been giving (very long but great) private lessons of drum set along side theory using Drum set rhythms to teach them how to write music on paper. So basically, they’re learning how to read by writing it.

So I have six weeks and three days till I make the journey home too. Whoopdido… haha ( I guess it doesn’t really bother me) I don’t even know why I said that.
You know whats funny? Sometimes people put things that they don’t really need or want to say when typing on a computer, but because they don’t really care they choose not to erase it. (maybe its just me but still haha I could easily just delete things I don’t need to say… anyone with me on that? )

I had a talk with Pastor Morris yesterday. (Whom I am staying with for those of you who don’t know or havnt been reading) I was really relieved because for the past week some things have really been building up. For instance all last week I was teaching privately from morning to evening and that wasn’t really the problem but I was quite tired from it. But what was a problem was that I had just tons of people wanting to get lessons and I just couldn’t do it. So I spent a long time trying to be respectful by saying that we cannot be a whole (as a church, actually meaning “body of Christ”)With many parts if all the parts are just one thing. (1 Corinthians 12 v 12 to end)
Sunday was a very hard day for me. So on Sundays, at church I usually play drum set for church, now that I have it… for about two weeks haha, but its hard because a lot of the people I play with don’t trust me while were playing and the keep looking back at me like im doing something wrong and its really been hard. The problem is if a mistake happens usually due to the singers skipping a beat or just singing a song with phrases that change all the time or with phrases that are very awkward (keep in mind these are regular songs not complex.) but I feel sorry for the keyboardist because the singers usually blame it on the instrumentalists and they make a big deal out of a small problem so as soon as Saturday comes around I am going to be teaching about why we do worship music, The motive behind the singing and playing. Because during the service it was really distracting, the feel of the group was tense and distracted, by just a small mistake.
I understand im white, but im playing with them very smoothly (its really not that hard) and I just don’t understand why they look at me like I don’t know what im doing. People here are so centered behind a rhythm that if something is a little different than its wrong. Ive come here to change that. Because when people get distracted by the music the whole reason for playing the music gets clouded and it becomes about the people playing nice songs instead of worshiping God.
The reason why I want to teach freedom in music because if your constricting your self by putting boundaries in your music than you could be not letting God to play instead of us. If we’re always limiting ourselves by making sure things are the same all the time we’re not being flexible, and when were not being flexible were not trusting each other to follow and it becomes a game of “Im right follow me! no! follow me! Wait what about me??? Follow me!” is there any room for God to move in that?
Why do we do worship music? To glorify God!!!! So it comes down to motive and not just feeling that way, but carrying out that motive by not just saying “well… I really wanted to worship God… “ But by actually doing it.

Does God work with brittle people? No he breaks them so that they may be flexible.

Maybe im being brittle… or bitter. I don’t know. I really do not want to sound like I am because im not bitter im just telling you what kind of hurt me, whats in my heart. If only I could have a tone of voice telling these words. But I guess if I didn’t care it would not be Loving these people.
Love means taking action in a way that leads someone in the right direction. Not leaving them alone to fall.
Why do you think our parents are hard on us sometimes? Do they just find joy in it? No way! They Love us remember?
Anyway my challenge for you is to mean what you say and to do what you say. Also check yourself, are you flexible for God or are you Brittle? Because God will break you. And he will, don’t think he wont. When your angry with him because of what He’s done think about justice. Is ours Sovereign or is God’s? Just like in Job when God says “Where were You when I created the Earth? “
Humble yourselves before him and be flexible.

The sheep who likes to write things that aren’t necessary but likes to keep them on even though he can delete them,

Scottry~~

Ps. Elections are tomorrow… How crazy! I don’t know what to think.