You know,

As Christians, we spend so much time creating a culture around us that we forget to just live our lives In Christ. We become intoxicated within the limits of our sterilized environment. Were we ever called to separate ourselves away from the rest of the world to become a "Holy Society" through which we dismiss peoples lives that are not like ours? Yet that "Holy Society" by day is something quite the opposite by night only to deny the guilt within us and pass it off like it didnt happen. Now, if we're part of this "Holy" club, this "Upright" light through which we look down upon the world, why are we so similar to the people we shun away? Is it not our job to be in loving communication with those people? Why did we stop noticing what kind of people Jesus hung out with?

there are soo many things that seem right and look to be right but are wrong. and its an easy trap to fall into. its hard not to be blinded, how do we know what's right? how do we figure out what to do?

And on the other hand, how do we know when we've gone too far, now being influenced by those not of Christ, in our endeavors to love people?

Maybe that can be answered by how much time We spend in reverent prayer or conscience study and application of the Living word under the supervision of a proper admonishing fellowship...

I must say that i am always fleeting, always wrong, stuck in the slough of my own folly, but if i listen to the Spirit of God inside me, I know what's right.

Sometimes, time moves backwards.

Im Starting to

break free from

this midnight i am in.

It's five A.M.

and the sun is approaching

with the first few rays

to break though the darkness.

Trying to break free from

this midnight i am in.

But do you find

that time moves backwards?

Trying to break free from

the temporary pleasures.

Do you find

that you don't belong?

Starting to break free from

the world that we live in.

Join the fight!

against our nature!

Patience

We are so quick to assume

A result of a lack of patience

For what is quick and easy we cling to

Yet how perfectly patient is God

Who is not bound by time

But created it for us in this world

Therefore

Since we do not own time

And because God is timeless

How much more patient should we be!

For so long as Love dwells inside us

the more patience we should demonstrate.

The Rich Man.

I was driving this morning to school, with the radio and cd player off. I almost dont listen to anything in the car anymore.

Anyway, i was remembering the story of the young rich man in one of the gospels(Matthew 19)

and i was thinking of ministry and the modern church and how its so easy to just let things happen without you and to just go about your business.

Do you ever find yourself in a strange situation where everything is bland? Have you ever wondered ever what ministry actually is?

This is something that i think the modern church has sort of morphed and shaped. its become a thing were people think its not their business being a minister. Its not a position of the higher authorities in some hierarchy of human religion, but rather the action that comes by seeking Christ.

When Christ died for our sins, and when the curtain in the Most Holy Place in the Temple was torn, all things that came in-between us when communicating to God, were no longer needed, and barriers no longer existed. Basically, When Christ died, we all became the priests through the blood of Christ teaching others by administering the Gospel of Jesus Christ. (which isnt to say that we intercede for anyone, but that the dependency of priests, Because they communicated with God for us, were no longer needed. They were the teachers, and now we-the Body of Christ, aka the Church- move into that spot.)

So heres the question: If we are all ministers, does that mean we all have to become pastors? Are pastors more special than we are?

No way, God has different plans for all of us. The reason some pastors( and i say some because a good amount really dont know more then we do... ) seem like they are soo far along in their walk is not because they are better than we are in some way(romans 3:23 "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God") but that they actively seek God and actively minister to people. Key word being "Action." God wants us to actively pursue him and talk to others about him in our own special application and setting. (1st corinthians 12 "Spiritual Gifts")

Thats a freedom we have in Christ-the freedom to serve him in our own way.

In Matthew 19 we have the passage of the Young Rich man who really wanted to serve Christ and be apart of his ministry, but because he didnt want to give up the things that owned (like his probably big pile of gold and many Hummer chariots with not 4, but 5 horse power) he went back home saddened. (if you read the passage theres a whole lot more clarity)

he let those things interfere with the ministry he Could have done, and wanted to do.

Heres another question: Do you spend more time consumed in what you do, though it might not be "sinful," then with God?

We're ministers right? Then lets start ministering.

From the Sheep whose birthday is on sunday and is thankful for Discussions with his Shepherd in the car,

Scottry~~

I cant help but feel sort of strange.

This last week, since last monday, has felt incredibly odd. Just sheer awkwardness around all of being here... at Lone Star College.

Not knowing anyone has never bothered me before, I mean, my whole life is full of moving, but theres this small unidentified desire that just puts me on edge... theres something about being alone, and i dont just mean relationships, in a new place that just changes my mood from content to earnest and seeking.

whatever it is, its making my stomach turn and twist. I feel so ripped and scattered inside.

Such constant warfare.

along with my workplace, a perpetual land of stumbling blocks.

I dont know what im looking for or why im looking in the first place.

-i have what i need already-

and yet i continue.

finally the pasta recipe

These last few weeks have consisted of a much more busy than normal pace, long walks/ rides/ deep conversations at the same time, and as expected, work. I dropped the laptop off down at the apple store, at the same time as getting a few shirts. Which is nice, because I have lately been lacking in work shirts, due to me being tall, and shirts shrinking.

I had another really great lunch today with a friend. It was pasta, Pasta Fresca. and this time I used Spaghetti Rigati, which is similar to Spaghetti but has little indented lines that run the length of the pasta, which does a very good job of locking in flavor. It really makes a difference and I think I like it more than Linguine. Thats the same with kosher salt and sea salt.

Here is the recipe (its kinda vague, but thats because it depends on how many people your feeding plus its more fun to experiment) :

• pasta
• tomatoes
• fresh basil, parsley, tarragon (in that order of amount)
• olive oil(try to get something nice although it isnt necessary. Just make sure it isnt like "light" or something weird like that but pure, or extra virgin, olive oil. )
• garlic, not alot. if you put too much it will be way too strong.
• a tiny pinch of rosemary.
• kosher salt or sea salt(dont use table salt), various types of pepper in a pepper grinder and dont use powerish pepper!
• butter, Not margarin!!

Step 1: get water in a big pot. (depending on how much pasta you make, a big one might not be necessary) Put a little less than a palm full of salt in there. (it looks like alot but its a good amount) do the other steps while you let it boil.

Step 2: get all of your herbs and tomatoes together and chop them up and put them in a bowl. But remember that you want more basil than the other herbs and the least tarragon.

then mix them up.

Step 3: get your garlic(that you chop up) and a pinch of rosemary and put them in a small coffee cup and pour a good amount of olive oil that covers the bottem of the cup.

Step 4: By this time the water may be boiling, so put the pasta in the water and put your coffee cup of garlic and stuff in the microwave for 10 seconds, take it out, and pour it in the bowl of herbs and tomatoes.

Step 5: stir the pasta every once in a while and taste it untill its ready, when its ready, take a SMALL half cup full of the boiling water and put it in the bowl of herbs and stuff. then pour the pasta in the strainer in your sink, put the pasta back in the pot(that you just emptied) and pour in the bowl of herbs and stuff and mix it all together.

Step 6: put a good amount of butter in the pot, add olive oil to taste(meaning dont put a crapload of it in there) and eat it!

yeah. its quite delightful and super easy. So stop eating out and start cooking! You'll Save money.

Scottry~

Shows, late night photos. and... pasta recipes. maybe.

Good evening, my friends.

its 11:54pm.

im wondering how many people read this... though i wont stop if no one reads this... but i want you to send me an email if you read this. no matter how long from now(july 20th 2009) it is. i think that would be fun. maybe ill get something in a few months, maybe a year!

whatever.

haha anyway.

On the past two mondays, i have had A few Sessions rather than "Shows" of me playing music and talking to random people in between songs. one thing to note... the sound system. if ever i play at dunn bros again i will not ever use their sound system. ill just use my own stuff. i did it tonight and it was great. (Last monday... not so much)

Overall, i had alot of fun, and i played a few songs quite well for having a sore throat.

There's something quite peaceful in playing my music for others. For me i guess its easier to share apart of myself thats deeper than words and conversation. yet its stressful setting everything up because i feel sort of rushed sometimes. but i feel good knowing that apart of me will go home with someone else. anyway...

I was looking at my computer on Photo Booth and realized that there are probably more pictures of alex choyce on there then there are of me... so i shot a few and here they are. Maybe i should try out for Americas Next Top Model.

Before that a few friends were trying to do cart wheels. One did. others didnt. i dont. Rather, Cant...

Ok so i know ive been talking about posting pasta recipes maybe next post. but really its quite simple.

I think i really really want a sheep. im not even joking. i really do. maybe i should have joined ffa and got a sheep...

Vatever.

I hope you all have a good night!

Scottry~