So this morning I woke up at around 8 Am, and was actually quick to rise and start the day. I took a shower, made some toast, put on 105.7 khcb internet radio and caught the end of a sermon as it ran into the old folks music thereafter. I then proceeded to take my dog on a walk which, lately, has been a far slower process than maybe a year ago, she just doesn't run as fast anymore...
anyway.
Something is preventing me writing.
(after about 30 minuets of thinking, scoffing at myself, realizing that i was mentally pacing, distracted by things of less importance... well, just look down to the next line)
I spend so much time pacing. So much time thinking. And never after a few hours of worrying can i even do anything. This summer i have been cooped up in my own worry and in my own frustrations too blind to see the grace and power My Father in Heaven has already given me!
I spend all my time in prayer trying to overcome the temptations in front of me asking God to "Enable me to... ___" or "Strengthen me to... ___"
Its like i pace while im talking with God instead of just asking for forgiveness for my short comings and resting in the Spirit Of God.
I was reading in second peter the other day and came across this:
" 3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires."
The Spirit Of God, the same Spirit Living inside all those who are God's Chlidren, has already enabled us! we just need to Start living Christ inside us aloud! He is in me.
I will finish this later... because i have to show up for work.
now that its a few days after i originally started to write, I've thought of a few things and God has opened up a dialogue within me to hear Him and i have been slowly been coming to that beautiful communication. For that relationship is so necessary and I long for it deeply. It's something you dont really realize until you have been deprived of it for even a short period of time.
People, Listen to the Spirit. Listen. Stop speaking. Stop pacing. just listen to His will. Listen and see how it works out in real life and take each day for what it is, a blessing from God, a time to spill out everything in our hearts to God in the most intimate way, or are you afraid to let those things be known?! God knows each and every movement of the wind, wether it be in the grass, up passing the top of a building, or brushing through our hair.
And there is no more fleeting and indecisive a force on this earth.
our thoughts and desires are like the wind, and these, not surprisingly, and no mystery to God.
Hiding anything From God is a useless endeavor! We, right now, are in his presence!
Therefore, Why continue to pace? Why continue to hide from living the real relationship we have with God? If he's here, lets talk to Him!! Lets acknowledge Him! This is no passive thing. This is no set of rules! This is not a religion game we play at church! we are the church! The body of Christ! We are to be known by everyone as Fools for Christ! Who apparently have a "relationship" that sets apart the tendencies and desires of one who knows and loves God from one who doesn't. We even have known to us the desires of God if the Spirit lives in us! (though God Chooses how much to reveal)
But in order to have any desires of God we must Learn what they are by talking to him. By listening. By living our lives, in our own settings and gifts, not anywhere outside the relationships and routines God has put us in for his good purpose, each hour in the presence of the Lord God Almighty.
From the sheep who paces far more than most people do; who, now, also has long enough hair to put in a pony tail,
Scottry~
