You know, if you have an old journal, take a peek through it. Its always good to know where you've come from. Heres, something I found in one of mine:
Inside me grows the desire of fulfillment
My body groans, the result of your absence,
oh my heart- how long till you burst
oh my heart- from stagnate water rising?
take this vessel,
i'll empty it
for i long for your intimacy,
speak to me eloquently,
once again
I know your voice,
I love your voice.
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If you spoke to me then, I might have thought the Lord wasn't moving in my life. (probably because I thought of my relationship with the Lord in a fatalistic view of my depravity, meaning, I will never be good enough for him to use me, or to show him self to me. )
Yet, this past year has shown me how much I've grown and how much the lord has used me in his kingdom even in the past few years.
And you know, there have been times where the Lord withheld himself from me, for darn good reason, because i was too selfish to listen,
But in knowing God, how long will you put yourself in agony when surrender is such a wonderful release? For me, i could never bare it that long. not but a month at the longest.
Anyway, all that to say, Go look at your old journal, go see where you've come from, and if you haven't got anywhere, try surrendering.
PICTURES! At least one of them will be the same time as those lyrics.
I think its the one that isnt of me.
From the sheep who loves reading old things and laughing at old worries,
~Scottry
Inside me grows the desire of fulfillment
My body groans, the result of your absence,
oh my heart- how long till you burst
oh my heart- from stagnate water rising?
take this vessel,
i'll empty it
for i long for your intimacy,
speak to me eloquently,
once again
I know your voice,
I love your voice.
------------------------------
If you spoke to me then, I might have thought the Lord wasn't moving in my life. (probably because I thought of my relationship with the Lord in a fatalistic view of my depravity, meaning, I will never be good enough for him to use me, or to show him self to me. )
Yet, this past year has shown me how much I've grown and how much the lord has used me in his kingdom even in the past few years.
And you know, there have been times where the Lord withheld himself from me, for darn good reason, because i was too selfish to listen,
But in knowing God, how long will you put yourself in agony when surrender is such a wonderful release? For me, i could never bare it that long. not but a month at the longest.
Anyway, all that to say, Go look at your old journal, go see where you've come from, and if you haven't got anywhere, try surrendering.
PICTURES! At least one of them will be the same time as those lyrics.
I think its the one that isnt of me.
From the sheep who loves reading old things and laughing at old worries,
~Scottry
